Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Harder than I thought





















Today is Calleigh's birthday. My baby is 2. I will never have another baby. This is a truly devastating day.

11 comments:

BoufMom9 said...

Oh what a gorgeous birthday girl!
I know just what you mean, as each day goes by, I realize the baby years are slipping away from me :(
It's a hard thing to let go .....

Cassandra-ann said...

Oh Jen (((((())))))
She is just so beautiful, which i know makes it even harder...
Happy Birthday Princess Calleigh! May all your hearts desires be filled....

and some huge hugs for mommy too ((((())))) I am so sorry she is your last, i dont know how i'd cope either i'd probably feel as devastated as you do....
Cassandra xx

Angela said...

I was right here where you are on the eve of March 8th, friend. I was sobbing and just so ROCKED by the unexpected flood of emotion that came with knowing my baby was 2 and I was done with tha chapter in our lives.

For me, it was more than just losing the baby phase forever, it was realization that the past seven years of my life, (being pregnant, nursing, and all that comes with it), had become a lot of how I defined myself, my worth. I know, logically, that I am more than a baby machine, but I had just become accustom to that newness regenerating every few months.

The next morning brought new grace though and I realized (again) that, although one chapter was closing, there was so much excitement and anticipation in knowing that our family was still growing. Since then, I have TRULY relished Annagail's each step toward idependance- not in a rushed way, but just in a savoring way.

I am going to lift a prayer up for you today friend. I know your heart where this is concerned and I know that it is a hard, hard thing to release that part of your life.

Blessings to you and Happy Birthday Caliegh!!!!!!!

utmomof 5 said...

Happy Birthday to our girl!! That last picture makes me want to kiss those cheeks right through my computer!! MMmmm!!

It is hard. My "baby" is 4.

Cindy said...

(((((hugs))))) I don't know exactlyfeeling, but I know just from talking to you how hard this is on you. I am sorry, but thing, she made it to two! You are on your way to no more diapers. That and 2 years olds say the funniest things. Hang in there jen, and Happy Birthday!

Sugar Mommy said...

Happy Birthday!
I am right there with you! My triplets turned 2 aboput 2 weeks ago...it was hard to think of them as....not babies anymore...
Hugs and here's to mommies of toddlers!

Cathy said...

Your post resonates within me to. *hugs*

Your family is beautiful, and she is beautiful.

Peace to you, and your turmoil. I feel it too.

xo

jILl PeTeRsEn said...

I too, know how you are feeling. It was hard for me this past year with my youngest turning 3. It didn't happen at 2 for me. I guess it was when he was potty trained. I started looking at other pregnant women and listening to my friends talk about being pregnant, nursing and holding their newborns. It made me sad. Everyone knows that I love babies so I hold everyone elses now. It helps! Then I give them back! Hang in there.

Sabrina said...

I am so sorry! She has totally changed from when she was that chubby little baby! She's alittle princess now! Hugs!

Christina said...

She is just precious!!

Tiaras and Tantrums said...

oh man - I so know that feeling - I HATE IT!!!