Wednesday, January 30, 2008
The end of an era
I have been a little sad over here these last few days If I weren't so excited about Carl coming home tomorrow and us going to Disneyland in April I would be very depressed. Calleigh is not a baby anymore. For the last couple months I have seen it coming but have chosen to ignore it. Last night was the third night in a row she did not nurse before going to bed :( I know I could keep nursing her but it just wasn't working for either of us anymore. Don't get me wrong I am excited to see her grown and watch her become an amazing young woman but I don't feel ready to let go of this stage. If I could turn back time I desperately wish we hadn't give in to the pressure from the people around us to stop having kids. That is definitely a decision that no one has a right to make but you and your partner. That said, there is nothing I can do now but enjoy the 5 amazing children I have. If anything this will help me to really value each moment in their lives.