Wednesday, January 30, 2008

The end of an era


I have been a little sad over here these last few days If I weren't so excited about Carl coming home tomorrow and us going to Disneyland in April I would be very depressed. Calleigh is not a baby anymore. For the last couple months I have seen it coming but have chosen to ignore it. Last night was the third night in a row she did not nurse before going to bed :( I know I could keep nursing her but it just wasn't working for either of us anymore. Don't get me wrong I am excited to see her grown and watch her become an amazing young woman but I don't feel ready to let go of this stage. If I could turn back time I desperately wish we hadn't give in to the pressure from the people around us to stop having kids. That is definitely a decision that no one has a right to make but you and your partner. That said, there is nothing I can do now but enjoy the 5 amazing children I have. If anything this will help me to really value each moment in their lives.

4 comments:

Sabrina said...

I feel so bad for you! People are just awful with the pushing. Now that you are "fixed" they probably feel the need to leave you alone. Ugh! I hate that! I'm sorry she is growing up so quickly. :(

Laura said...

Hi Jennifer, I've been blog stalking you for quite a while now. I found the link through Shawna Ladoroute's blog. Anyway, I really enjoy reading about your adventures with five children - looks like you're doing an amazing job, and have lots of fun doing it, although I CANNOT fathom how you do it without Carl home half the time - good for you! Love the laundry basket thing too - so cute! Laura Toews

Shawna said...

A little tear came to my eye when you were talking about Calleigh being your last 'baby' ~ No matter how much I can't wait for my kids to be grown and going onto bigger and better things I don't want that last 'baby' to come and go...It breaks my heart just thinking about it!

Joanne said...

For everything there is a season....When Bob and I decided to not have anymore kidlets; although I knew it to be a good decision, I too felt sad that I would never again feel a child move within me as it grew, or never again nurse a wee baby. But God's plan for our lives is perfect....cherish every stage of your wee tykes....for soon they will be teenagers!! You are doing a stellar job, Jennifer!